“Sometimes there’s airplanes I can’t jump out…
Sometimes there’s bullshit that don’t work now…
We all got our stories but please, tell me
what there’s to complain about”
~ Good Life, One Republic
Lately I’ve decided to choose joy. Not because it removes my grief or undoes losing Ben, but because there’s still so much to live for and I believe he’d want me to enjoy all the things while my clock is still ticking.
And no matter what, I take him with me in all I do; so it’s important that I do so with as much joy as I’d want him to feel if he was still alive.
This date is and always will be reserved for him. And today I’ll feel my deep sadness because I miss my baby boy.
But tomorrow I’ll return to joy and place the grief back inside my heart where I know it’s safe until I need it again.
The Reinvented Mom 